He Loves Her 5

20 Nov 2014.

This is the first time I heard in one year. She likes me. 

A: Aku takut luke kan hati ko. I will make u hurt someday. Better find another girls out there.

Z: It's okay. I'll take the risk. Sbb aku rase it's worth it.

I went to pick her up at her apartment, with a lil something something. A plan. I arrived almost 9pm and waited for her. Then I see her. She walks towards me. I just waited. And as soon as she's close enough, I showed her a bouquet of red roses and sang to her 'I'm Yours' by Jason Mraz. And her reaction. As expected. The reaction I so wanna see since Penang. I got the chance to see it again. Beautiful. Then I opened my umbrella and walked her to my car, under the rain. I opened the passenger door for her. And there's a chocolate bar for her. Haha along the the way she was giggling and smiling, with a mixed of emotions of happy, shocked and embarrassed. An exact copycat of Penang.

P.s: Supposedly I have my gopro with me but I kinda messed up. Pic mode not vid mode. I'm frustrated with myself. This is what I got:

He Loves Her 4

19 Nov 2014
She's going to the gym. Invited me. But I decided to take a break. I havn't had proper rest since Penang, so, sorry A, I'll meet you tomorrow, with some evil plan on my mind hahahahaha.

He Loves Her 3

18 Nov 2014
I met her again. This time for lunch. Just wanna see her in her work outfit. That's all. She look nice.

He Loves Her 2

17 Nov 2014
I met her again. Not much. Picked her up and we decided to visit a friend. Admitted due to dengue fever. I'm exhausted but because of A, I suddenly felt energetic. Don't know how it happens.

He Loves Her 1

16 Nov 2014
One year has passed since the day I met her. I decided to surprise her.

Z: A, bukak beg jap
A: Knape?
Z: Bukak la...

Then I took the perfume I've been keeping for so long, her favourite, Gucci Flora, and put it in her bag. Omg her reaction when she first saw it was...wow... Her face turned red before she knew it. She was like smiling and blushing and went behind my back to cover her face. Too late. I saw everything. It was like the cutest reaction ever! She's happy, at the same time she's shocked and embarrassed. An unforgettable moment. Priceless.

Sums up my incredible one year anniversary with her.

Oh and this is my one year anniversary note:

20 Hari Kehilangan Cinta - HARI KEDUAPULUH (20) - END

16.03

Today is the day when I have to start forgetting about you. You've caused too much pain to me. Leaving so many scars on my heart. I have to start erasing you from my memory. I have to delete your photos on my phone. I have to delete all your text messages, whatsapps, vibers. I wouldn't want to do all this. But I have to. I have to think about myself. Thanks for the wonderful memories we've created together for the past 4 months plus. It was short, but I've felt like I've known you for ages. I never regret knowing you. Even with our 7 years age gap, I hardly even noticed it. To me, you're the one and only for me. You completed me.

During those 4 months we spent a lot of time together. We texted everyday, from dawn until midnight. We shared everything. We never get bored with each other. We never ever quarrel, not even once. We never hurt each others feelings. Always missing each other. Always loving each other. At that time I felt like you're the one for me. The one I want to spend my lifetime with. I'm hoping that we'll get married someday and live a happy life together.

But sadly, things didn't go as expected. We have to live our separate ways. It's hard for me to live like this but I have to accept everything. Allah has His own ways. I have to put faith in Qada and Qadar. For now I can only pray to Allah, 'Ya Allah, please give me strength to face the days ahead of me.' I will also pray for your happiness. Please don't treat your new guy how you've treated me. Appreciate him. Take care of him. Don't make him suffer like I did. I wish you guys happiness. May our paths cross again in the future. Till then, take care A. Thanks for everything.

Yours sincerely,

F

20 Hari Kehilangan Cinta - HARI KESEMBILANBELAS (19) part VI

15.03 part VI

I just made a big mistake. Really big mistake. I saw a picture she uploaded on Instagram. Yes and I'm not supposed to do that. And guess what did I see? A pic of her new bf, alone. I was like, what? During our times together you don't even bother to upload my pic? Then suddenly you're just very new (?) with this guy, you decided to upload his pic? Hmmm, thousands of thoughts running through my mind right now. I can't help but to think that you're just using me. Using me to get away from your ex-bf so that you can be with this guy. I'm sorry if I'm wrong but your actions somehow made me think that way. As if I'm just a merely stepping stone to get what you want. Yes, you've made me think that you've been cheating on me since the beginning.