20 Hari Kehilangan Cinta - HARI KEEMPAT (4)

28.02
I'm starting to get hold of myself, a bit. I managed to reduce my crying hours. I started to take my meals, even though the portion was not much as before. But I still can't get rid of the crying during driving habit. That empty seat next to me had always been occupied before. Always. Suddenly thinking that the seat might not be occupied anymore really breaks my heart :'(

20 Hari Kehilangan Cinta - HARI KETIGA (3)

27.02
I'm weak and exhausted. My unshaven and messy face said it all. My eyes are red and my stomach is empty. I skipped lunch this time. I don't wanna eat. How can I eat when I'm not enjoying my food? My tongue can't taste them anymore. I feel empty. I'm dying to text her but I can't. She ignored me. She hides her last seen status. And at some point I realised, she blocked me. When someone you truly love blocked you, how do you feel? I felt sad, heartbroken, miserable, devastated :'(

20 Hari Kehilangan Cinta - HARI KEDUA (2)

26.02
The office doesn't feel like office no more. It felt like a prison. Everything I tried to do, she'll always be there in my mind. I can't focus. I can't be alone. When I'm alone, I cried. I cried while driving. I cried while praying. I cried in the toilet. I cried even when I'm doing my work. I just wanna get over with office and go home. I'm so tired and sleepy. I haven't got enough rest from yesterday. But no matter I tried to close my eyes, I end up tears rolling on my cheeks. What have I done to deserve all this? :'(

20 Hari Kehilangan Cinta - HARI PERTAMA (1)

25.02
The day my heart broke into pieces. Shattered on the floor. Just like that. Went straight to my room and shut the world behind me. I cried and cried until my eyes sting. I wish I could just forget about it but I can't. I can't sleep well. Each time I tried sleeping I dreamt of her texting and I woke up. Then I started crying. And when I tried sleeping again, the same thing happen. Over and over again. I didn't had dinner and I felt weak and tired. It's too much for me to handle :'(