20 Hari Kehilangan Cinta - HARI KESEPULUH (10) part II

06.03 (part II)
She removed her relationship with me on fb. Well, I should have expected that. She would have removed it on the very first day if she had the opportunity to log in fb I guess. Hmmm, now I'm really worried. Hope she doesn't remove me on fb and block me on twitter. Why did she do that? Why can't she just let that relationship status until we sort it out later? She really doesn't want me back, does she? Hmmm, I'm feeling down right now but I have to be strong. I'm not gonna cry anymore.

20 Hari Kehilangan Cinta - HARI KESEPULUH (10) part I

06.03 (part I)
She updated on twitter, she had period cramps. On normal days I would ask her to rest and take care, I would make her feel better. But now, I just simply can't do that anymore. I have to wait until my chocolate is delivered. What is my bro doing? Haven't he delivered the chocolate yet? I have to be patient and wait for her reply upon receiving the chocolate. Then what should I respond? Just a simple 'You're welcome'? Hmmm yeah maybe just that. I just don't know what to say anymore. I just don't want her to think that I'm a nuisance that's always disturbing her daily life. I don't want her to hate me until that extent.

20 Hari Kehilangan Cinta - HARI KESEMBILAN (9)

05.03
It's been a week now since our breakup. Not much on her twitter. I wonder how's she doing. Is she okay? Is her studies okay? I knew that she's too busy and got lots of work to do rather than spending time on social networks. I miss her. But how much I've miss her I have to refrain myself from contacting her. I can't afford to be hurt more. I just can't. The fact that she blocked me on whatsapp had put a huge hole through my heart. Just like indirectly saying please don't bother me anymore! I'm just sick and tired with your whatsapp or whatsoever! Thank god she's done nothing on twitter, yet. I hope it stays that way. That's the only medium I can use to be close to her. To know whether she's okay or not.

20 Hari Kehilangan Cinta - HARI KELAPAN (8)

04.03
Fresh week to start all over again. I ate like normal, just that my appetite hasn't what it's used to be, but I'm still glad I can eat normally. Even though I can't contact her directly, I just can watch her from afar, following her tweets, instagram. Yeah she's been very busy throughout the week, with her QS Day activities, assignments, projects. She stayed up late everyday. She only slept 2 hours the night before the QS Day. She slept just several hours before her project submission. I felt sorry for her, I wanted to say hi to her but I guess I'm not supposed to do so. I just can pray for her health and hope she can cope with everything, yeah that's the best thing I can do for her right now.

20 Hari Kehilangan Cinta - HARI KETUJUH (7)

03.03

I managed to get hold of myself a bit. My parents somehow knew what was happening. Yeah guess I'm no good at hiding things eh, they could just see it. My mum gave me a motherly advice. When she was 21, she had lots of boys admiring her. But at that age she's still unsure of what she's gonna be, who she wanna be with. Yeah I admit 21 is still young to decide things and supposedly I have to anticipate that. Hearing that advice from my mum I felt a lil bit better. I should give A some space. If it's meant to be, it's meant to be. I have to move on and secretly prayed that I'll be given another chance. I still love her, no matter what. When I love someone, I love her with all my heart, but the downfall is that, whenever you got separated, it would be fatal to your heart. I passed a chocolate to my bro to be delivered to her, hoping that she will sincerely receive my gift.

20 Hari Kehilangan Cinta - HARI KEENAM (6)

02.03
Saturday. Not a typical Saturday for me. I'm not in a mood to speak to anyone, just lying on my bed. I really wanted to go to Seri Iskandar but I don't want her to be mad at me. I already prepared some scripts on how I wanna say to her. "Firstly, I wanna apologise to you for the mistakes I've done. I know it's wrong for me to do that, I'm your bf and I'm supposed to protect you, not hurting you, I'm sorry. Second, the main reason I've come this far to see you is because, I miss you and I want us to be together again. I tried living without you for days but I can't. I just can't. I love you so much and I don't wanna lose you. You want me to forget you? How on earth can I do that? To forget the one you truly love? Easy said than done. Please. Come back to me..." :'(

20 Hari Kehilangan Cinta - HARI KELIMA (5)

01.03
Friday. It should be a happy day. But for me, nothing has changed. The constant pain just keep hurting and swelling deep in my heart. I can't seem to put that pain away, no matter how hard I tried. This proves that I do really love her and having the thoughts that she'll never return back to me really scares me. I'm no more the same, always dark and gloomy. I think my family noticed it, same goes to my office mates. I decided to go to Seri Iskandar, to settle this down. But I just found out she came home to get some few things. And I managed to get hold of her via twitter. Getting some replies from her at least calms me a bit.